ouch

i took my sleepy time medicine, but i can't sleep.  i feel horrrrrrrible.


i knew that going out to the show the other day might mean almost a week of rest and aches, but i really didn't think/was hoping it wouldn't be like this.

my right side hurts like hell.  the side i just had surgery on.  and if i tell anyone, they ask, "but the adhesions are gone.  what do you think is hurting?  do you think it's surgery pain?"

and my honest opinion?

yeah, sure, some of this is surgery pain, but mostly, i'm sure another adhesion has grown back.  they can grow back in a week, easily.

with having all my autoimmune diseases, it's hard to really know the difference between "ouch, this hurts really badly" and "out, one of my organs is in danger."  because the pain is the same.

usually you vomit and all that if it's trapping your intestine, and since that hasn't happened yet, i'm not worried, but it's really uncomfortable.

plus, my lupus is flaring.

lupus flares are different for everyone.  for me, they feel like i just ran eight marathons on arthritic legs and have the flu.


sleep is the best, and ive done a lot of it lately, just not during good times.

hoping for sunshine in terms of my health, or at least a reprieve.  please?